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Sunday, November 14, 2010

Stronger than Yesterday

I am beginning to feel stronger in every aspect of my life.  Well, minus physically. Hah.  Even though I am stronger than my students, so I guess that works, too. 

My classroom is really coming together, and it feels like home.  We are a family, and I really do love them to pieces.  Don't get me wrong, we still have our daily battles and struggles.  They challenge me constantly, but that is exactly what makes me stronger.  I have already accepted that I'm not going to have it ALL figured out for the first few years, but as long as I wake up in the morning excited about going to work, I'll be alright. 

Last week, my teacher coach set up an observation for me at another elementary school in the district.  It was my first day to be away from my students.  As crazy as it seems, when I told the teacher I was observing about how it was the first day for me to miss, tears filled my eyes.  My boys and girls are the reason I enjoy walking into that building at 6:30 every morning.

Speaking of walking into that building at 6:30 every morning, I really need to get myself together so that I can not spend 12-14 hours of every day in my classroom.  I'm pretty clean and organized, but I always find another project or something to do, and I can't seem to get out of there in a timely fashion.  Hopefully this is just a first year thing. 




My friends have been so wonderful through these first few months of teaching and the break up.  I love spending time with them.  Thank you, ladies.




I'm also feeling much stronger emotionally.  This break up is what was best for both of us.  Honestly, one of the hardest parts of it all is making sure that everyone knows that it's not anybody's fault.  I know that he's not what I need, but I also know that I'm not mad at him for that.  I don't want anyone else to be mad at him either.  He's happier, I'm happier, and no one is to blame.  No matter how our lives change now that it's over and no matter how quickly either one of us move on, he was/is a good friend and doesn't deserve any grief.  It was fun while it lasted and the best first relationship a girl could ask for.  I sincerely wish him all the best. 

Friday, October 22, 2010

WORLD SERIES!

My kids have been nuts this week, but the Rangers are going to the World Series so I'm over it. :)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

ESL Certified!

With the arrival of the wonderful Mrs.Saldivar came a mad dash to get me ESL certified. 

We taught three classes of 25 3rd graders (maybe 5 or 6ish being ELL's) for three weeks without an ESL certified teacher on the team, and while I knew that this was a problem that needed to be addressed, nobody (administration wise) seemed to be in any hurry to make sure that one of us take the steps to get certified. 

Mrs. Saldivar was assigned to join our team and already was (thank goodness) ESL certified.  I thought this would put everyone at ease, BUT I was mistaken.  In order for my class to switch with hers and viceversa, our adminstration panicked about me being certified as well. They immediately got me registered for an ESL review course with Region 10 that would take place in Richardson 3 different nights for 4 hours a session. Rouuuugh.

I took the test this past Saturday and found out today that I passed. :) One or two more steps and I will be OFFICIALLY certified with a few more bucks added to my paycheck.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Time Flies

Time's got the best of me.  I honestly can't believe that it's been over a month since I've updated this. SO much has happened since I told my little ones goodbye.

Mrs. Saldivar
Lisa Saldivar is an absolute BLESSING. The poor thing was pulled from her 2nd grade class at Whitt Elementary and given 48 hours to get her 3rd grade room at Eisenhower ready for a class of 16. She did. Not only has she been just what those precious children need during a transition like this, but she has been just what I need to survive the struggles that come with the first year. It turns out that she knows my mother and that her son was good friends with my sister growing up. Her homeroom switches with my homeroom and she teaches ELA while I teach Math and Science.  Lisa is extremely helpful and is constantly looking out for me. PLUS, the kids absolutely adore her. :)

1st Six Weeks
The first six weeks came and left so very quickly.  Getting classes settled into their new homerooms created some trouble when transferring and entering grades online, but after everything was sorted out, grades were done.  My sweet boys and girls had a difficult first six weeks in dealing with a huge transition from 2nd to 3rd and a shuffling of homeroom/math/ELA teachers within our own 3rd grade team.  I don't know how we expect them to be at the top of their academic game when they have so many things on their plate. Nonetheless, I'm proud of them. I can not wait to see how much they grow this year.

They also took Six Weeks Tests provided by the district for Math, ELA, and Science.  Oh boy. Once again, had these boys and girls had a consistent schedule the first six weeks, the same teacher for the same subject the first six weeks, and ample time to receive every lesson that was supposed to be taught the first six weeks, I'm sure they would have done great. BUT, that just wasn't the case. I just about fell over dead when I saw the results for the grade level, but there's not much we could do. Lucky for us, the test results don't have to be recorded. So, we used the data that was beneficial to us and set the tests in a big 'ol pile to worry about another day. There's always next six weeks...

Field Trip
The first Friday of the second six weeks found us at the Grand Prairie Nature Center for our first field trip.  A few interesting tidbits from this adventure:
- It makes for an uncomfortable journey when 136 third graders, 7 teachers, and 2 parents have to ride on just 2 buses.  Try sharing a seat with 2 of your students.
- I learned that our 3rd grade team is the LARGEST elementary grade level at any of the campuses in the district. Great.
- Two of my students have severe allergies and had to stay with me all day which forced a change of (already complicated) plans.
- If you don't let students go to the restroom when they say it's an emergency, they'll pull down their pants and pee on the nearest tree.  
- Yes, you read that last one right. He peed on a tree.

Lifted Spirits
Just when I thought I was never going to get the hang of anything, I found my inbox flooded with emails from other people I know and my parents know throughout the district.  Every day, there is a "Today in GPISD" email sent out to the district full of news and updates and announcements and shout outs.  In the "Today in GPISD" email last Tuesday, there was a shout out for me.  (This is the part when I brag on myself a little.) :)  After I realized that all of the emails from people I know on my campus, around the district, and people that know my parents were responses to the daily email to the district, I went to the "Today in GPISD" email that I normally just quickly scan, and read down to find this encouraging note.

I would like to acknowledge a special  teacher:
First year teacher, Miss Aren Lackey, is Capturing Kids Hearts even on the weekends. This Saturday, to my surprise, Miss Lackey approached me while I was sitting on the sidelines of the GP Dolphins Pee-Wee football game at Parkhill Park. She had made a promise to my son and another student that she would come watch them play football. The boys were celebrating homecoming, and at the end of the game she stayed to congratulate them on a job well done. Kudos to our new teacher for being FABULOUS! I think Miss Lackey has exactly what it takes to make a GREAT teacher here in GPISD! Sent in by Ashley Logan, 8th Grade ELA and Pre-AP Reading Enrichment teacher at Fannin Middle School.

I felt like a celebrity and it felt absolutely wonderful. I was so glad that I got to see two of my boys play in that game, and I didn't even realize the impact I was making. I must be doing something right. I guess?

Ms. Turner
Emily Turner is also a first year teacher and has been such a good friend as we tackle this crazy little thing called teaching. She is our P.E. teacher and has an enormous amount of challenges she faces on a day to day basis as well.  They cram as many kiddos into that gym as possible each period and leave her with an unteachable amount of students. Despite all that, she comes and says hi to me every morning and every afternoon and has a great listening ear. :) And we all know I have plenty to talk about.

Personal struggles
My students have had so many challenges, but I, too, have struggled to find happiness.  I lost the one I loved and thought would be mine forever, and I've never experienced anything so tough. I just take on one day at a time and hope that something with someone will work out somehow someday. All of my time and attention and energy is being spent on my third graders, and I work very hard to stay positive when I'm around them. They deserve it. 

I'll do my best to NOT wait another month before I blog again, but I'm a busy girl. :)

Friday, September 10, 2010

Losing my Little Ones

This week has been rough, but today was especially difficult.  We had to set up the new class lists for our new homerooms now that we have the new teacher.  As much as some of my kiddos drive me absolutely bonkers on a daily basis, it was so hard to choose the ones that needed to be put in the new class.  And, of course, we didn't want to just dump on the new teacher, so some of the super sweet ones had to go, too. Even though I'll still get to see the kids that are in the new homeroom every morning for math and science, it's so tough to have to get rid of them. 

This will make for smaller classes, though. It will definitely be a good thing once we can finally get into our routines and such.  I'll figure it all out one day...

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Exhausted.

I am exhausted.  Thank goodness for 3 days weekends, but this 4 day week has been quite a challenge.  I haven't been in a very good mood for a number of reasons and as much as I try to leave that out of the classroom, it doesn't make for very positive days.  My kids are super funny and sweet, but they LOVE to talk.  I've done a lot of "warning," but we're about to have to get serious.  I probably should have already gotten serious, but that's just not my personality.  Off with the silly/playful face, on with serious/mean face. :/

The powers that be keep changing their mind (or at least telling us different stories) about whether the new teacher is coming or not.  We have our team meetings with the principal every Thursday during conference, so HOPEFULLY we find something out then.  At this point, I don't even really care whether we get another teacher or not.  There's positives and negatives about every situation.  I just NEED to know what's happening so that I can move on with my procedures and schedules and such. 


On a lighter note, my Godson, Jaxon Kane Miller, was born yesterday at 12:36pm.  I got to hold him in my arms yesterday afternoon, and he is absolutely precious. :)

Saturday, August 28, 2010

One Week Down

Whew. That was so exhausting. Everything about this week has been crazy.  Despite the craziness, I am SO thankful for all of it. 

I had 28 kids on my roster Monday morning, but only 22 showed up.  Then I got a new one on Tuesday morning, and then 2 more new ones on Thursday morning.  I'm back up to 25.  It makes for a very crowded room.  They did, however, tell us that we WILL be getting a 7th teacher. :) This won't happen until after Labor Day, but it will happen. It stinks to know that I will lose some of my kids, but I know I will get them back for half of every day anyways when we rotate classes. Having to wait another week to find out exactly how everything will fall into place makes things so complicated.  I want to assign my student numbers.  I want to give them mailboxes.   I want to post my class list in places.  I want to write my kids names on the birthday poster. I want to get into a routine.  One more week(ish) and then hopefully I'll be able to get it all together. 

Kids say and do some funny/sad/strange/memorable things.  They have had me cracking up and extremely concerned so many times this week, and these are some of the things I want to remember. 
- We were going to make a birthday bar graph with sticky notes on the board at the beginning of the week, so I handed every kid a sticky note and asked them to write their name and birthdays on it. 
             "Ms. Lackey, when is Thanksgiving?"
                 "Well, sweetheart, Thanksgiving is on a different day every year."
             "My birthday was on the day after Thanksgiving last year."
                 "Um, well, I don't know what day Thanksgiving was on last year, I'm sorry."
  ...His sticky note ended up in the February column with February on it.  ...His birthday is November 27th. 
This has encouraged me to make it a goal for my class that every student enter the 4th grade knowing exactly when their birthday is.
- Friday during recess, I was doing recess duty with Micah and Maggie.  They were standing on one side, and I was standing on the other.  I noticed two boys standing across the play area facing the fence with their backs towards me.  I looked over at Micah and Maggie and they were both looking at the boys, too.  It seemed to me that they might be ...well...using the restroom, but I couldn't tell for sure.  I looked back towards Micah and Maggie and they were still watching the boys closely.  The boys began to turn back around toward us and ZIPPED UP THEIR PANTS. Uh... I looked back at Micah and Maggie and they were both laughing.  I went to join them and we were all very confused.  We got our giggles out and called the boys over to discuss their, um, choices. They definitely did just decide they needed to use the restroom. I guess boys will be boys? I had to call parents and all of that fun stuff, but the boys, I hope, have learned that there are better options for that particular situation... Oh geez.



I went to dinner with some of the girls from my student teaching cadre on Friday night.  It was SO GOOD to get to talk to someone who is going through the exact same thing as me.  We all learned together and practiced together and were/are so prepared to tackle all of this.  But, that doesn't make it less stressful.  I'm so thankful for the friendships I gained from my student teaching experience, and I look forward to sharing stories and ideas and strategies as we all continue in our careers. :) I hope the rest of the ladies that are still on the search for a job find their perfect match soon! I'm praying for you!


   

Monday, August 23, 2010

I survived!

Well, I survived my first day as a third grade teacher.  I had 22 show up.  Other than that, I don't really remember what happened today. :)

I was up by 4:20am and at school by 6:20am.  It's now almost 7pm, and I'm DEAD. I had a pretty good day, nothing too terrible. There were lots of times that were pretty crazy, but I think my kids felt like it was under control and I think they had a great first day of 3rd grade. :)

When I have more time and energy (hahahahahha), I'll give some more detail.

Day 1= DONE.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ready or Not...

Welp, I survived Meet the Teacher.  14 of my sweet kiddos showed up, and I'm really excited about having a class to call my own.  There is still lots of confusion as to how our schedules will work considering our large class sizes and the possibility of hiring a 7th teacher for our team.  They have mentioned that we'll possibly get a teacher transferred from another school, but that probably won't happen till after Labor Day.  So for now, we'll switch our 3 large classes 3 ways and I'll just be teaching Science.  But, when/if the new teacher is added, we'll switch 2 ways and I'll teach Math and Science.  I'll be happy either way, I just hate that we'll have to get into one routine with one set of kids, and then switch them and their schedules all around later.  These kids need consistency.  I'm afraid that they'll take kids out of my class that I really like and already made connections with.

I went up to the school for a few hours yesterday morning to try to finish some things up.  I had to leave by one, and I left feeling very flustered and unprepared for Monday.  I brought home a bunch of things I could work on here, and as the weekends gone on, I've started to feel a little bit better about tomorrow.  But ready of not, in less than 24 hours I'll be in a room full of potentially 28 of my own 3rd graders.

Here goes nothing... 

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Meet the Teacher

Tomorrow night is "Meet the Teacher." You can go ahead and start your prayers right about NOW.

The good news is that I get all day tomorrow to work in my room. Those 9 hours are extremely valuable.  I also have to keep reminding myself that I have all day Saturday to get things ready if I need it.  For tomorrow night, I just have to have a clean room.  It's okay if my bulletin boards don't have anything on them yet. (I mean, they are covered, but that's as far as some of them may go.)  Some of the behind the scenes type stuff can wait until Saturday, too.  Being so extremely worked up over what all I need to get done has kept my stress off of actually meeting my 27 little ones and their parents.  I think that part will be fine.  I'm really excited about meeting them and being able to call them mine. :) Talking to kids and their parents is something I have done all summer at camp.  While I know the situation is different, I feel as though I can keep a smile on my face and hold a conversation with the group of people I meet tomorrow.  Being brand new to the school may create lots of questions from parents too, but it'll be fine. I hope.

Slowly, but surely.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

27 third graders?

As of now, there are 6 third grade teachers on my team. We have 3 bilingual teachers that will teach the Dual Language students, and the other 3 of us will have the remaining students.  If all "rules" were followed, our class numbers would not go over 22 students each.  The dual language classes are sitting at about 16 or 17 per room. My class and the other 2 regular classes, on the other hand, are at about 26 or 27 students per room. 

I saw 27 names on my list today and almost had a panic attack. I don't think I can even fit 27 desks in my classroom...

They say our lists will change every day for the next week, but it still makes me anxious. ...like I didn't already have enough to worry about.  If I have 27 kids in my class, I'll love them all the same, but it will be challenging to make sure I give them all the individual attention they need.  Not only will it make things tougher for me, but those precious young things won't be able to benefit like they could if there was less of them in one room.

NOW, my hope/concern/plea is that they add another third grade teacher. We have the numbers for one, and I KNOW there are people out there who would LOVE to have that job, AND it would be a huge relief for me and the rest of my third grade team. ...Win. Win. Win. I don't understand why this hasn't already happened.  I know, I know...my "voice" is so far from being heard or considered that this is probably a worthless paragraph, but I feel better making it known that I think a 7th teacher on our team would be a brilliant idea. :)

Friday, August 13, 2010

And so it begins.

I've been waiting my whole life for this. Besides the brief moment in time that I thought riding on the back of a trash truck would be the coolest job ever, I've always known that I would grow up to be a teacher.
       I spent many summer days playing "teacher" with my stuffed animals and baby sister.
       I spent many afternoons drawing on overheads in my mom and dad's classrooms.
       I spent f i v e l o n g y e a r s in college "learning" how to be an effective teacher.
       I spent many hours listening to Norma and several other wonderful people from Grapevine pour their heart and soul into helping me be the best I could be.

       I spent many late nights scripting out detailed lesson plans.
       I spent months as a teacher intern with a group of precious third graders and sweet little first graders.


I say all this to say- I had lots of support and people to prepare me for what this first week of my education career would be like, and nothing has really been a MAJOR surprise.
I knew I would be stressed. I knew the meetings would be, well, not very exciting. I knew I would end up spending a ton of money on my classroom. And I knew I would get to meet lots of new people.



I started new teacher training on Monday. I spent all day Monday and Tuesday and half a day on Wednesday in meetings. While they weren't the most beneficial meetings I've been to in the last five years, I am very grateful for the opportunity those meetings provided for me to meet other new teachers around the district and at my campus. All of the new girls I've met really have their hearts in the right place. They are so much fun, and I'm so glad I have someone to go through all of this with me. We keep reminding each other that we'll make it one way or another. And that we'd much rather have the stress of getting our rooms together and organized than the stress of still looking for a job. (...which, God bless them, many of my fellow interns still are. Keeps your heads up ladies, one will come around!) That alone helps to keep me thinking positively and keeps me very aware of how very blessed I am to be in the position I am in at this point in my life.




Setting my room up has been a whole other challenge of its own, but like I said, I'll make it work. The teacher that had the room before me left a giant mess for me. A lot of the supplies will be very useful to me, but I needed to set aside a great deal of time to cleaning out the cabinets and organizing everything. THANK GOODNESS for family and friends that have come to help me. My parents, my sister, her friends, and Scott have all taken time out of their summer vacations to help me fufill my dream. They want to make sure that I feel ready. Many of the things they have done for me are things I could definitely do myself...if I had 3 months to get ready...but I don't, and their extra hands have been a saving grace. I couldn't be more thankful. My room already looks a thousand times better, but it stills needs some more tender, love, and care before parents and students show up to take a peek next Thursday night. Eeek.


I'm going to take a break from my classroom for the weekend so that I can be refreshed for another long week of preparation. It's still not ALL real to me yet, but it sinks in a little bit more every day. So crazy. I'm hoping to use this blog thing as a way to keep a personal journal of my first year as a teacher. It'll be tough and fun and stressful and exciting and crazy and rewarding and exhausting, and I want to remember it all. So HOPEFULLY I can find time to blog every once in a while. :)