Stronger than Yesterday

I am beginning to feel stronger in every aspect of my life.  Well, minus physically. Hah.  Even though I am stronger than my students, so I guess that works, too. 

My classroom is really coming together, and it feels like home.  We are a family, and I really do love them to pieces.  Don't get me wrong, we still have our daily battles and struggles.  They challenge me constantly, but that is exactly what makes me stronger.  I have already accepted that I'm not going to have it ALL figured out for the first few years, but as long as I wake up in the morning excited about going to work, I'll be alright. 

Last week, my teacher coach set up an observation for me at another elementary school in the district.  It was my first day to be away from my students.  As crazy as it seems, when I told the teacher I was observing about how it was the first day for me to miss, tears filled my eyes.  My boys and girls are the reason I enjoy walking into that building at 6:30 every morning.

Speaking of walking into that building at 6:30 every morning, I really need to get myself together so that I can not spend 12-14 hours of every day in my classroom.  I'm pretty clean and organized, but I always find another project or something to do, and I can't seem to get out of there in a timely fashion.  Hopefully this is just a first year thing. 




My friends have been so wonderful through these first few months of teaching and the break up.  I love spending time with them.  Thank you, ladies.




I'm also feeling much stronger emotionally.  This break up is what was best for both of us.  Honestly, one of the hardest parts of it all is making sure that everyone knows that it's not anybody's fault.  I know that he's not what I need, but I also know that I'm not mad at him for that.  I don't want anyone else to be mad at him either.  He's happier, I'm happier, and no one is to blame.  No matter how our lives change now that it's over and no matter how quickly either one of us move on, he was/is a good friend and doesn't deserve any grief.  It was fun while it lasted and the best first relationship a girl could ask for.  I sincerely wish him all the best.